Aging the World

No matter how hard I do try I can't lock away pain into a little box and throw away the key.  We can ask for healing as much as we want and believe me I do, but when we feel good we forget to thank for helping us feeling better and when we are bad we sound like we are demanding help.   A lady once told me to thank my body for supporting me through the days and I do try to remember this.

Sometimes in life you are always pushing for the next step, when you're young you want to be older, when your 18 you are wanting to be 21, then married, then have children, then suddenly you are old and waiting for retirement then that comes and then its waiting for death.  When you have ill days you want to next step, when you have good days you don't want it to happen.  The one thing certain in this life is that we can't go back, so wishing our lives away is stupid yet we all have done it.

What is life?  Sometimes when I'm busy at work it seems strange that we worry about whether this job gets done, what does it matter... why is it so important?  I wonder if we had not populated and developed as fast in the last 100 years would life go as fast.  I would hate to have lived through must of history as it was torment and torture, with kings and countries constantly fighting and killing I doubt we ever had an Utopia that we should have had.

We have this dream inside of us where man is equal, where living side by side is easy and fulfilling, all fantasy future films produced years ago use to show living in communities that were at peace and then someone would come along and destroy it.  That is so typical of us, our species as a whole.

If there was a garden of Eden I doubt Eve would have bitten the apple it would have been Adam, because war and power seems to be an ingrained piece of the male psyche not the woman.

If the world had a chance to start again, sorry the human had the chance to start again, could we do it where we were law abiding without being guided, could we live and share without money, no.  I know it could ever work, but it would be nice if we started again with our modern technology as it stands that we could live with manufacturing in our small communities for what we needed, ate from local produce tendered by those who prefer to work outside, hospitals ran by those who had a caring side, and none of it driven by money, just a need to live and be happy. 

Our Towns not so large, no over populated cities, rural villages all within 5 miles of each other, that would be nice and communities would once again flourish.  Children taught to be polite and caring, parents not spoiling kids and letting them do as they please.  Education instilled on subjects that mattered. 

I think as a world we are too far gone in many places, we have to hope that those who live in the amazon or the small villages in India can carry on living the way they do for many years to come, it could be they may be the only people left the rate we are going at destruction.

I hope there is a spirit world and in that world we do live at peace, in communities and share.  Yet if this was the case why did we not bring that world to this?

Another question to leave you pondering over.

Brainwaves

Do you worry if there is something more once we die?  I have found that I am thinking more and more about it as time goes on.  I know that I want to believe, after all I do go for spiritual healing, and I have had a message from the otherside but was it a trick of the mind?

I think the more you want to know the less you do get confirmation of it all.  I truly hope that the healing I receive is doing some good, but then do you only get healing if you have never been a bad person .. then that would rule out lots of us wouldn't it.

What happens when we die, is it like a sleep that we never wake from?  We dream but at some point during the night we must stop dreaming and enter a total blackness but our heart just keeps pumping and our organs doing what comes naturally, so does our brain continue to exist and what if we wake up when our body is no longer there .. is that spirit?

Something to ponder on and something I needed to get off my chest.

Over populated

Many times I seem to look back at the past and wonder if I had done this or done that would this be different or would it still be the same.  I don't want to live in regret yet the way we live our life never seems right.  Were we mapped out to do this and that before we were born, was there a meaning to our life, have we missed it, should we have picked up on something and changed it. 

We can change some one's day by smiling at them without even knowing, we can also hurt some one by saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.  But if you were to remember something you have done it is usually the one that upsets things, not the one that brought joy.

Having cancer you go through ups and downs, when you go through the downs you seem to constantly look at the things you that you preceive you did wrong.  The nights you can't sleep your mind just sticks to every mistake you made, are you cleansing your soul before you die or giving yourself the biggest guilt trip ever!   I feel guilty for the world sometimes, what we as man have done.  The damage we have inflicted on each other in the name of God, wars because one believes in this or believes in that.

We all have beliefs, whether its in God (to whatever name you want to give him) or the sun or even just yourself.  Why should your thoughts be any better than your neighbours, why should they be so strong that you will kill for them? 

Then there's the poor animals.  The way we live today our cattle are herded by quad bikes, no human contact until they stand infront of a bolt gun and get murdered, all for mass production.  It would be great if we could go back to small villages that provided meat just for a few hundred and the farm animals got to live a reasonable life.  Chickens weren't force fed within 6 months to be eaten, once over they got to live till at least 18 months.  All these things keep me awake at night and make me feel guilty.

In spiritualism the belief is that part of God is born within, an essence of himself, is that what makes my guilt weigh heavy on my mind during the long hours of the night.  Can we make our world better or are we too late. 

Our population keeps growing, its growing faster than the world can accommodate.  We have taken over the land and the sea.  We dump waste, dig up resources and leave great big gaping holes where the oil has been extracted from. We rule the airways with waves that force birds off track and kill our bees.

We go on about sending money to the poor, instead of money maybe we should be teaching birth control, animals don't produce large families when they know droughts are due yet in these continents families are producing baby upon baby, they know that only 1 or 2 will survive but have loads to ensure that at least they have one.  Why not teach them that if you put all your energy into two they will survive instead of having 10 and loosing 8, now with all our aid, those 10 survive, which over populates the world.

We have come to far to change and everything nature throws at us to reduce the growing number we find something to counteract it.  So far probably the only thing nature can do is flood us out, but with that it kills the wild life.  If there was a virus that wiped out the human race that would be created by man himself, we are on the way to destruction just not many have woken up to the fact.

What keeps your mind swirling at night?