I found out the other day that the healing minister has cancer. All the work and time she has put into spiritualism and you would think she would be healthier. Infact I haven't come across anyone really in the church who does have really good health. Maybe spiritualism and ill health go hand in hand!
Lately I have wondered whether there is such a thing as home, do we leave this host and return to another home, where we float like air but can communicate, sense and feel but not touch or be of matter. I did believe it in whole heartedly after having an experience back in 95 where I was transported somewhere else, leaving my body to do a talk while I went to the stars and felt the love and the tug of having to leave it when I was brought back to earth.
As I seem to ponder about what will happen next in my own life part of you wants to push on and see whats next, the other wants to stay and be here for as long as possible. Strange the thoughts you have when you have terminal cancer. You battle with it, fighting for your very existence on earth then wonder what will really happen when you die. Problem is once you're dead you can't really come back and say I didn't want it to happen yet can you. If you get married you can divorce if you don't like it, you can swap jobs if you hate what you do, you can change your face with the magic of surgery but once you're gone you are gone.
Guess I will just have to carry on pondering as I don't want to go.
